Now that I’m newly single I’m going out every night and having a good time with it. As long as I’m with someone I’m okaay. That’s my problem I can’t be alone because that’s when this constant sick turning feeling in my stomach comes back and my chest hurts. I start to think about everything we had. No it wasn’t much but I miss it. But I know what I have to do. I have to move on from you. So I’ll continue going out and partying and not giving a fuck. I’ll keep talking to many guys and doing my thing..
It’s funny when your newly single. You can talk to so many guys and find out many new things about them. Then you got some guy in your Spanish class saying he likes you and in your science class another. You always fall for the guy that doesn’t fall for you. That’s exactly what’s happening here. The really good nice guy doesn’t want you all these other guys do.
I’m going to say something straight out. I had sex with this guy right after getting out of a relationship and did it one because I was drunkish, but two because during my last relationship he was the guy always telling me it sucks seeing a beautiful girl like you in a horrible relationship with a bad guy. So umm open your eyes now please!! I’m not in that anymore and I already had sex with you. I’m STANDING RIGHT HERE. And your not taking me… I knew you weren’t the “good guy” now again from my stupid assumption I have to live with the price and guilt and pain and everything else that comes along with it.. I don’t know what’s confusing me so bad. ugh. I can’t even write this all down because I don’t even know how to describe my feelings. I miss my old boyfriend and I hate that I had sex with this guy and he hasn’t really talked to me much after. but he’s nice. I hate that I wanna find some way to hurt myself other than cutting and not eating seems good. I think that’s what ie been doing this past two weeks.. and on top of that this guy I thought I could see myslelf with lives far away, but likes me. And the guy that I actually know I like doesn’t always seem like he likes me, and hasn’t talked to much to me after that night we hooked up.. So awesome got myself in another pickle.. Fuck this.
No matter how much I regret meeting you, talking to you
20/5/12, 23 notes
No matter how much I wish I never ever had anything to do with you, and if I could go back in time… I’d totally avoid you
However no of that ever changes the fact that I miss hugging you and thats the only thing I want right now
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"I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away."
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7/5/12, 175814 notes
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